Just An Update Here

Hey there! It's been awhile since I made a decent post, so I thought I'd type something up real quick. I swear that once I really get down to business and have my computer fixed I'll start making useful/funny posts, but until then this is just going to make sure I KEEP POSTING because if I stop for too long this blog will die just like all of the others in the past. I've been trying so hard to keep it updated that all of these posts have seemed pretty useless and rushed, mostly blathering uselessly. I'm afraid this one won't be much different, since I have no idea what I'm about to write, just like all the other times.

First of all, I've actually had quite a bit to write about lately and I wish I had been able to keep up! I suppose the one big thing are the two little things snuggling against my neck right now. Kittens! So far they are unnamed, but I found two little guys under my house a few weeks ago. It was a challenge to get them out of there, and at first they were very angry with me to say the least. I felt awful for taking them from their mother, but I knew they would suffer if left alone. My goal had been to get all four of the kittens and their mommy in one go, but two of the kittens and the momma have moved. I'm happy I was able to save the two I did find.

One is black and the other is grey and striped. Already the little black one has a home with a friend of my boyfriend, but the grey one is still alone... I wish we could keep him, but my grandmother is terribly against it. It's her home, so I have no right to argue, though I keep trying to trick her into being around the little guy in hopes that she'll fall in love with him. So far, I think I've been a little successful, but she's still against the idea.

Also, I've been getting ready for a local convention that I'm very excited for. This is the first time I've been able to go all-out with Cj. We got a hotel, reserved our tickets, the whole nine yards. I'm so excited!! We are going as Miguel and Tolio from The Road to El Dorado. Of course, since it is a four-day convention I'll also get plenty of chances for my Kigurumi Panda and some decora.

I would usually also throw Lolita on for at least one day, but lately I've been a bit jaded. It seems like every time I get one dress, everyone else I know ends up getting four. It's not like I'm competing, but I just don't have the diversity I wish I could have. For instance; I do not have a single patterned dress. It's not that I never wanted one, but they are just too expensive for me! Even if I did have the money, since I grew up in a lower middle-class home, it's really hard for me to spend that sort of money!

Cj can attest to this. In fact, this weekend there is a fair nearby us, and he wants to go ride the rides. I said he could go ahead, but it's too pricey for me even if he DID offer to buy my tickets! I simply can NOT justify those sorts of prices! A dollar per ticket, and then four tickets to ride a single ride? No, no, no! I can't DO it!! Haha. Every purchase I make, even ones I need, has to be carefully thought out and justified. Sometimes the justification is something along the lines of 'I deserve to splurge a little!', but even then... It's hard for me to use that on anything more then twenty dollars. Even books, which I love, are sacrificed to my frugality. Manga, for instance. I can love a series to death, but how can I spend ten entire dollars on a book I'll finish in under a half-hour!? That's too little for too much!

You see, I'm so cheap! It's probably something I need to get over, but I think it's a good trait more often than a bad one.

But it really hurts the diversity of my Lolita outfits. . .

Well, I think that's enough to keep this bloggy alive for now. I'll try to update with pictures after the convention. 

D-d-d-d-d-down With The Sickness!

Oh goodness I have such blog envy.

I need to make mine prettier. Honestly, this is sad. I really need to find a camera and get a nice picture and make a header... Put up a nice background, something not so boring... Oh goodness, what a battle!

Anyway, none of that for right now. I've been really insanely sick for the past four days, and it's been tough. I was supposed to go camping this weekend with Cj, but we had to leave early because it was too hard for me to breath. I've gotten a bit better, but the mornings are awful. I could list the symptoms, but it's literally a mile long, it's like nothing wants to work the way it's supposed to be!

The worst part about having so many things wrong (besides the pain in the butt it is) is that it doesn't matter what medicine I take. I'll take one medicine for one thing, and then that certain symptom will improve, but the rest stick around. Next I'll take a different sort of medicine, and the last thing will come back! It's very frustrating.

The only thing that's made my day better is that I have the most amazing boyfriend. I had muted my phone last night when I went to work (I was called in last-second), and passed out the minute I got home. I forgot to turn my phone back on, and slept until noon. When I woke up I was coughing and hacking. I felt (and looked) really horribly yucky, but there was Cj in my kitchen, offering me some tea and hugs.

He also kept tricking me into kissing him, which is cute even though he's sneaky!

I love that boy.

I really hope I get better soon, because I have a lot to look forward to this weekend. I was hoping to go to the drive-in with Cj to see two movies we both want to watch very badly, and then my best friend is throwing a Lolita Day celebration on Saturday. I feel so gross, but I haven't seen her in a long while, and I haven't had a chance to wear my sweet lolita dress in years, and that's the one I picked... (Because unfortunately I couldn't afford a new one at this time).

I've attempted a few at-home remedies that were very helpful. When I had post-nasal drip two days ago, I was in so much pain I started crying. I was so desperate I tried a DIY cure that involved snorting a mixture of water with a tiny amount of baking soda and salt. It was gross, oh so gross... Oh so very, VERY gross... But it worked magic! The pain was gone within twenty minutes, and it's stayed away. I still have all of the other issues, but they are tolerable compared to that pain.

I'm still trying to work off this sickness as best as I can. Most of all because this might be my last weekend where I'll have free time. Next week I have my first official day of work. If you remember about eighteen sentences back, I said I was called into work, but that was out of necessity. I technically still haven't had my orientation, but I was needed and no one else could come in. Mostly I just stayed in the back and helped clean up because the store was so busy. It was a holiday, so I wasn't surprised. Anyway, I'm very excited to start working, because it's my first step to everything I want for myself in the future.

I want to move out and have my own space, more than just one room. I can't wait to have an entire house to myself (and Cj, of course!). Before that, there are a few little splurges I'm looking forward to. I have a list of so many things I'd like. There are a few expensive things; a lolita dress, a new camera, circle lenses... But mostly it's the little things I'm looking forward to. Being able to buy things for small crafts, and makeup whenever I want it without having to scrimp and save. I mean, I won't just spend all of my money like it's nothing, but a few things here and there would be nice, as long as I'm still saving up.

Well, I suppose I should wrap up my ramblings and attempt sleep. It will be difficult, since I slept so late today and then didn't do much activity-wise because I'm sickyface, but I should at least make an honest attempt. Night night!

Things My Cat Does: Volume One

These are just some things my beautiful kitty-cat, Sammy, does on a regular basis. Besides derping, which he is totally doing in the picture above.

1. Sleeps beside me with his head turned upside down and belly presented. That's how I know he'll be there for the rest of the night. He looks comfortable, but when I try it it just really hurts my neck.

2. Snores. Snores like you wouldn't believe. I'll wake up at night and think that Cj is sleeping beside me, but no, it's just Sammy taking some nap times.

3. Follows me downstairs every time I go, but refuses to come back upstairs with me. Seriously, the second my foot hits the hallway he's beside me, but no matter how much I call he doesn't come up until he feels like it.

4. Attacks my pajama bottoms, but only once. If I walk around my house in pajama bottoms, Sammy will jump my leg and bite the bottom, and then immediately run away. It's not often he'll try more than once, even if I stand still.

5. Whenever I open the window beside my bed, he'll jump right up like most cats. However, the window faces the road, and whenever a car drives by he'll jump down and glare at me as if it's my fault that we live in a high-traffic area.

6. Loves my hair accessories more than anything we can shove cat nip into. We buy this cat a toy about every other week, but nothing can compete with my favorite flower hair ties and my spoodles. I don't think I have any spoodles left thanks to this little guy.

7. Drops down in front of where he knows my foot is going to land next. Whenever I walk downstairs, he runs until he is a foot ahead of me and plops right down in my path so that I much adjust my trajectory accordingly. And of course, every time he does this he gives me those big, fat kitty eyes and I have to pet him.

8. Opens his mouth and keeps it open like he's REALLY excited about something. I wish I could catch this move on camera, but it's really hard. It usually lasts between 5-20 seconds, and he'll look like he's happy as a clam. It's adorable.

9. Looks adorable, even when he attacks you. It has something to do with the way his lips look when he's biting into tender flesh, but it is adorable. It almost makes you forget about the immense pain. Almost.

10. Loves when I pets him, but eventually decides that we are playing instead. I can pet him peacefully as can be, but at some point he will almost always decide that I'm actually in the mood for a scuffle and attack my arm like there is no tomorrow.

Writers Block is Keeping Me From Coming Up With a Clever Title

Hello everyone! I know, two posts within a week of each other, my goodness!

To be honest, the only reason I'm writing a post for this right now is because I have complete and total writers block. I have several stories I want to tell, but they are so convoluted and half-thought up that it's impossible to 'start' them. I could write scenes, true enough, but when I start writing one of the scenes I know takes place I suddenly forget everything I was that piece of the story to mean. Writers block is awful. I have a book for of ideas, but nothing inspires me. It doesn't help that I have to sit here on my bed and attempt to write. If I even for a moment actually get absorbed into the story, my back starts to hurt or a pillow falls on my face or something equally silly. I really need to set up a writing area, I've been planing it for some time.

First, I need to move my desk to catch the light better. Then I'll decorate it a bit, and hopefully find a chair that isn't meant for the reject at thanksgiving dinner. I've been debating trying to steal my sisters, because she never uses her desk. I may ask later on.

So, as long as I am stumped as for actual writing, here is what I have been doing lately and what I hope to do soon!

First of all, I've been organizing things. I find it's easier to keep organized if the devices I use to store items are pretty, so that also means decorating. I've been dressing up boxes to hold makeups, and just generally trying to tame the beast that it my bedroom desks. I have two, yes. One basically acts as a makeup area because I share a house with two women and it's impossible to have the bathroom for a long period of time.

Also, I finally got a job! I know, I probably should have listed that first, but heck it didn't occur to me and I don't edit my blog posts like a responsible young lady should. I'm not working at a nice ice cream shop nearby, and I'm not sure if I'm allowed to mention the name so I won't. Not that I would ever say anything bad about this place, they probably have the best ice cream on the planet and some really, really great people work there, but I'm just going to be safe about it. I'm very excited to start and try to make the best impression I can!

I've been trying like hell to find a drive-in that Cj and I can go to so that we can enjoy a nice movie-night. I grew up with drive-in's, and it's one of those things I don't want to forget as I get older. Last year I wasn't able to go to a single one because I had no means to do so (no car), but Cj does have a vehicle in which we can travel in, so I'll finally be able to go again! I really wish we hadn't gone to see Thor last week, because a nearby place is playing Thor and Pirates 4 side-by-side. Two movies is usually the standard, by the way. For anyone who has never been to a drive-in movie, you must. It is probably one of the most authentic, fun, and entertaining summer activities that I've ever had.

Plus, it's basically two movies for the price of one, and you are totally allowed to talk because there's no way you're bothering anyone (except the people in your car)!

Sammy is cuddling in my side right now, hugging my arm. It is quite adorable.

And with that little segway, I'm also actively trying to think of something fun to do to celebrate my birthday. I'm thinking maybe a bonfire would be nice. Smores and hot dogs and lots of little buggies biting my arms. We have a nice big backyard, and it would be fun for me and a few friends to just chill out for a bit. Followed of course by all the girls having a sleepover. Yeah, I'm turning twenty and you'll have to deal with it. I will have slumber parties forever.

Well this blog is a jumbled mess of jumping from topic to topic. Apparently my writing problem isn't going to be solved by writing about my day. Oh well! Have a great day/night (depending on when you're reading this!)!

Summertime!

As much as I love school, and I do love school, I have really been looking forward to a break. I'm very excited to get things done this summer that will make my life more organized and pretty. Today alone I have rearranged my room, hung up four more pictures (my newest obsession), decorated the boxes that hold my makeup and my brushes, cleaned the entire house and made a list of goals. I have goals for the day, goals for the week, goals for the month an goals for the entire summer!

Yes, I have been a busy little bee.

I'm also going to try to be a more sociable person. I realized lately that I've been quiet and weird as of late with my friends and loved ones, and that doesn't sit well with me. I've always been introverted, but I don't want that to effect my relationships. I think that during the school year I allow myself to get completely absorbed in my schoolwork, which is a good thing, but it is much easier to ignore the social part of my life. Weird, huh? Most people use school to socialize, but I use it to avoid it!

I'm not going to talk about everything on my lists, because some of them are personal and some of them are just boring things I have to get done, but here are a few things that are fun.

I'm going to be saving up money to move in with my boyfriend. We decided a long time ago that we weren't going to move in together unless we had the extra 'emergency' money to back us up. We are saving up 5,000 big ones before we even start looking for an apartment, which is a hefty sum for two college-students. I'm just a paranoid person, so it's more for my comfort than his.

I'm also saving up for a nice video camera, so that I can start a video blog as well as this normal... not-video blog. Plus, Becca and I would like to record our dances with a nice camera for a change.

I have a birthday coming up, but I'm not sure what I am planning. Anyone who knows me well knows that I haven't had the best run with birthday parties. Ever since I turned fourteen they have been god-awful messes, and I don't really like them anymore. I've come to really hate July 24^th, with a passion. But... I think maybe going out to see a movie with my boyfriend and then having a sleep over with friends might be cool.

One other goal I have is to lower my 'to-read' list. I have about forty books I want to finish, and really need to get started. Unfortunately, I need to find a way to pay for my high-school stupidity. I used to check out books and not return them for months, if at all, so my charge is ranging on the side of 'high'. How high? I don't remember, but I'm afraid to ask. I think it's a little above a hundred.

So those are my plans for this summer, except I have many more on my list. A lot of them aren't worht mentioning, like filling out my FASFA and getting a copy of my parents tax returns, or buying a new notebook to keep my lists in (the one I have now is running low on free pages).

Right at this moment I'm going to go finish my 'today' list by throwing some laundry into the washer and folding my clean clothes. <3 

Stressed Out!

It's been a trying week for me. I don't want to get into what's been happening too much, but it has been bad. Nothing life-changing bad, just frustrating and hurtful. It's been made worse by a lack of sleep and a general feeling of hopelessness. I don't meant this in an emo 'pay attention to me' sort of way, but a true hopelessness I need to pull myself out of. I've had a few bright moments. 


For instance, my father brought up how much I've changed in the last two years, and I really have. I'm still me, I still like all the things I used to like, and many new things as well. But I've become more aware of myself and I like taking responsibility more than I used to. It made me feel better, because I remember times in my past I felt much worse than I do now. It's been awhile since I've felt this emotionally pained, but this isn't the worse it's ever been and it will go away. I know it will.


That, and my supportive boyfriend, loving sister and super best friend are the few things keeping me upright. I don't have many people who cheer me on, and it's nice for the first time to have three instead of depending on myself. I'm just going to have to try harder. That's okay. I'm never one to run away from hard work. It's the rejection that hurts, and I'll have to get past that.


We have to move on when are lives, even when things seem hopeless, right? :)

Joker's of the Ocean

The Escapist : Video Galleries : The Big Picture : MovieBob's Junk Drawer

Anyone who knows me knows that I adore MovieBob. He's funny, he does good work, and he has a microphone that actually works for his show (you would be surprised how rare this is sometimes.

I know he has a ton of fans already, but I thought I'd share a link to one of his shows because he made a really funny point. (A lot of them, really, but one specifically). I quote:

"How come they've never done one of a killer dolphin? I mean, go look this stuff up. Dolphins pull some seriously nasty stuff in the wild. But everyone assumes they're very friendly because... well... They're always smiling. Except they're NOT always smiling. Their jaws are just kind of shaped that way. Dolphins are basically the Joker's of the ocean!"

Love it.